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Big Kids

from Nightlight by Ben Erling

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First from a child's perspective and then from the adult's, this song is written around the realization that nearly nothing changes when we all become adults; we're just kids running around with adult bodies.

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I Want to be big
Want to be a grown up
Don’t wanna be a kid
Wanna be old enough
When I grow up fully
And have my own home
Big kids and bullies
Will leave me alone
But for now
I’ll stay out of the way
keep my head down
and dream of the day

I hope there’s a time
In adulthood
Where everyone’s fine
treated like they should
I can hardly wait
But the thing is
Maybe it’s great
Just to be a big kid

Now I’m a self-starter
Car, home and career
The bullies are smarter
But they’re still here
I’m always on the run
from here to there
Accomplishments come
But now no one cares
I do what I want
But mostly on my own
Acting nonchalant
Adults are so alone

I thought there was a time
In adulthood
Where everyone’s fine
treated like they should
I’ll still wait
But the thing is
It was great
to be a big kid

a reverend preaching
but he’s ashamed
a woman teaching
but they’re underage
a mom of three
out fooling around
the watercooler seems
to be the playground

I think there’s a time
In adulthood
When we realize
We’ve done all we could
Grown ups aren’t around
and the thing is
Its pretty clear now
We’re all just big kids

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from Nightlight, released January 15, 2013

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Ben Erling Fairfield, Connecticut

Unimpressive musician. above average Street Fighter gamer. connoisseur of candles. If you have a passion for mediocre music, you've come to the right place. Artists that I've drawn the largest influence from include Blink182, Ben Folds Five, New Found Glory, NOfX, and AFI. I often write about the darker parts of our nature, but also the bright moments that define us. ... more

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